Friday, December 12, 2008

Right Where You're Supposed To Be

Whether you are a mom or a single woman. Whether you are a homemaker or employed outside your home. God knows right where you are. And He has a plan and purpose for it.

Isn't that exciting? Isn't it comforting? It's easy for me to drift into a mindset where I'm questioning God about the purpose of certain activities or situations. Thinking, "Surely Lord, there's more to this. You haven't forgotten about me...have You ? Cause remember that vision You gave me. Um, I'm not seeing anything here and well, it didn't exactly involve a toilet brush."

That's one thing I love about God, He let's me talk to Him. About anything. And then He gently guides me back to where I need to be. Which still involves the toilet brush, but includes a happy heart with it.

When I first began staying at home with my children (2 1/2 years ago), there were times I became frustrated with the inability to participate in "godly" pursuits outside the home. Prayer meetings, conferences, etc. I wanted to feel like I was making a difference for the Kingdom. I wanted to be operating in my giftings. I wanted. And because I wanted I was dissatisfied.

Instead of seeing the true opportunities within my home to use my giftings, I was focused on what I could not do. Some of it had to do with people telling me it wasn't my season - I do not like to be told that - and some of it had to do with people telling me how much I was "missing" when I wasn't a part of such and such. But a lot of it had to do with me. I did not see my family as my ministry. I want to do big things for God and I didn't see how I could do that "confined" at home.

Before I move on, let me be clear that I was (and still very much am!) glad for the opportunity to be home. And honestly, I went through a period similar to this when I worked full-time outside the home.

Of course it's not wrong to desire God to use me, but I was so caught up in what I could be doing out of my home, that I was neglecting what I could be doing in my home. I had a self-centered mentality about God using me and a warped view of what ministry really is. So, my focus began to change and I learned how to fully embrace my time as a housewife.

No matter what and where God has called us, it's for His purpose. Learning to rest in that is not always easy. Whether it be to change something in you or to change something or someone where you are, He always has a plan.

One of my favorite accounts in the Bible is the story of Jael found in Judges 4. Sisera was fleeing from the army of Israel and sought refuge at Jael's tent because her husband had made peace with his king, Jabin. Jael gave him refuge and then killed him as he slept.

Jael was right where she was supposed to be. She didn't even have to leave her home, God delivered the enemy right to her door. And she was ready.

One of her many responsibilties included putting up the tent. If she had not done this many times before, building the muscles in her arms, she would not have been able to physically drive that tent peg through his head. All the times she labored to set up her tent, she was right where she was supposed to be.

So as I find myself completing the mundane tasks of life, I know it's where God has me, preparing me. Because I know He uses the ordinary to accomplish His extraordinary work.



Karen said...

good grief. Out of every person in the bible you love the story of a woman who wipes out the brains of a guy with a tent peg driven into his skull during a PMS day. Gosh. I will make sure I stay away from YOU the next time we toast marshmellows. NOW I understand that gleam in your eye as you sat, deep in thought, grasping that VERY metal and VERY pointed marshmellow stick over the fire. Thankfully, you had just given birth so there was no PMS - just sleep deprivation.