They Grow So Quick

I remember listening to adults when I was younger talk about how quickly time goes by and thinking, "Yeah, yeah." Now, I find myself thinking that statement all too frequently.

I'm not much into making New Year Resolutions (one more thing to make me feel guilty when I don't follow through, how's that for being motivated...), but I think my new mission might just be to have one moment every day where I have that, "This is what it's about," feeling with my kids.

Because...it goes so quickly.

I'm currently going through mommy growing pains. Did anyone ever tell you that parents go through these? No one told me. Much like no one told me that taking an infant's temperature rec*tally would stimulate the bowels. Call me crazy, but projectile poop at 3 in the morning is not the way I like to learn lessons.

Learning to let go has got to be one of the hardest things in my opinion as a mom. And that's what I'm doing, letting go. Caleb is on his way to Puerto Rico. Without me. Without Richie. Traveling with my mother and my grandparents for a week in the warmth, experiencing a part of our heritage. Experiencing life in a BIG way. Without me.

So, I sit and consider how many more times in my life I will feel this and without hesitation, I know many. *gentle smile* The calling on his life will take him many places. Many places without me. But always with God. And that's where I find myself resting.

Okay, clinging might be a little more appropriate at some points, but anything that draws me closer to God is good. A bit painful at times, but good. Trusting God with my son...because he's not really mine to begin with. He's a gift entrusted to me.

I look forward to hearing about his adventures when he returns and to pressing in closer to God as I seek comfort and peace for my mommy heart. Thankful that he gets to have this experience. And that I too get to have this experience, continuing to learn how to let go. Preparing myself for the day he leaves home as a man.

Man, they grow quick.